Anonymous, submissive, 43.
I was visiting with my former stepfather and he was away at school at the time. His ex was there and she got some beer we started drinking. Before I knew it, I was drunk and the next thing I know my clothes are off and she has me on the bed. I said “stop stop! What are you doing” and I felt so weak. She was on top of me just having her way and then I must have past out because I wake up the next morning. I was just ashamed and humiliated and I felt so used. I just wanted to take a shower and it was like no matter how much soap I used it felt like the filth wasn’t coming off. And for a long time I never told anyone the full story because I was so ashamed of myself. Like what’s wrong with me? I guess that’s why I have the self-esteem issues I have and am always pushing myself in the gym.